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03 septiembre been a whileit's been a while that havn't typied any words here
lazy or just don't wanna think back
doesn't matter now
new semester
at some point, a new life pace
kind of being fooled or in a rush ,then ended up moving in another place and left him back there
get used to live together already, i admit it
sometimes really get annoyed and pissed off
when he suppose to show up but no, he didn't
i was so damn soft and gentel that even being a lillte harshy to him, i m feeling punishing myself as well
few times i was nearly stressed out by his lazy and non-perfect attitude
anyway, see this as a normal phase in every relationship
after all the stugglings and confusions, things will get better and clear
we ll make it, hope so
after two year's diploma, seems i am doomed to continue for the bachelor degree
study...study...study...assessment....exams........
not i don't want to, but just want a while to be free
but who says i m not free now
er, be grateful
life is already much easier for me compare to most others
hope here can be updated regularly
hope i can be in this mood regularly
btw, which one you like more~~~?
27 marzo you know what...you know what...
as your point of view, you think my life is free of trouble, you think my life doesn't need any strugglge now...
and ye, i need a place to take out as well!
what is my main conserns, or ,in another word, my main issues,
1,why do i still stick into a relationship which is no future, and more and more step into it...
2,how could i find a job in my circumstance?
i am already get uesd to this life style which i don't need to work and my parents and my bf would support me in financial.
i know it is a life a bitch girl would choose...
i m just too lazy to struggle into work force ...
but if i couldn't be with u , may be i ll not be the one who i am now
ye, i won't be the one who i am now without you...!
it is impossible to quantify how much i put into this relationship,
such a irony,i know this gonna be an relationship without an happy ending
still cant stop my feeling, my efforts...
3, the XXOO immigration policies!!!
no need to explian any more about this
the one konws them will acknowleage my feeling,
those who don't ,dont bother!
after all,
it's still a life filled up with happiness and confused and sorrow ...
11 febrero six months anniversarysix months, half year already passed
i know it's not a long time at all for a stable realationship but i still feel i've reached a milestone for me ,for us falling in love is a easy case, but what comes next is the diffcult part for most of us to deal with no one is borned to share everything in common and no stains even for myself i m sort of thinking that we r not the perfect couple in the world ,but we r the perfect match for each other i m thinking as that now,still. but things r get chanlleged every step it keep warning me this is a realistic world, not a fairy tale even though i know it since the very beginning, may be i m just realize now everything has a price,u get it,u paid for it sometime, i don't feel well of living what i live now people around get their friend cycle more and more bigger,experiences more and more as well but i m still the same one since everything has begun i know the price, i know there is always fairness in the world somehow just the so-called lack of balance attitude three things u need to be done to manage ur realtionship:compromise,trust,and understanding that's always easy to say only those who spent the lovely and bitter time with their beloved ones are capable of realizing them my new semester begins at this week which means my two whole months summer holiday officially ended.
it seems gonna be much more struggle than last semester
i wish it all gonna ends well
13 enero 2008-2009time has past....went from 2008 to 2009, a new year has came, the old year has been a history.
dream is existed for being come ture... what if it can't be real at last...so that's what we called a forseeable misery...
i can't deny the obvious reality behind my lovely dream...
so, shall we live in a life that always doubt for what the fate would bring for us at last...or just simply enjoy the happiness now, regardless of the end.
that 's easy to call ha~
my little old laptop came to life at christmas day as a miracle...haha~
i got a chance to work in BF's cafe restaurant until febrary.
Although the paid not very well and the content of the job is hard to be satisfied and enjoyed with, better than nothing.
that's enough better~i m satisfied, i really am.
next week come by my 21st birthday~ look forward to it~
keep going with my simple life~
03 diciembre recall and look forward....It is Dec. now at here, the same time in last year,
one was in so-called winter while the other one is in summer
one was in the northern hemisphere while the other is in the southern hemisphere
one was just 2-hour flight from home while the other is 11-hour flight
one was just two girls stay in the dormitory where it was 13 girls stayed during semesters , while the other is not just two
i am not that kind of people who like adventurous life without a stable life style
however, i survived at last though those obstacles and challenges
so , should i say life is tough or i am tough or both?
some memories suddenly recalled , remind me the past no matter it is bitter or sweet
being jealous and unbalance, which are the human's greatest flaws, so do i
first semester is end, time runs to the long two-month summer holiday
still struggling and looking for the job
i believe God has his plan for each other , and God won't abondan his children.
less compliants ,more actions
keep moving on...
life is not easy at anywhere.
thanks for being friends with ur guys in the new place,
lina, jiwon, fiona, bingbing...
especial thankfulness to my big dear baby~~!
Love u all~~~
24 agosto we belong together"your beloved one will always love you...
for him...there is certainly no harms, but cares....
there is certainly no worries, but happiness...
how he has wished the wound have been planted in his heart rather than his dear ones....
he felt the oneness with you....he just realized the pain should indeed be shared between you and him rather than you alone....
simply because you are no longer just belonging to yourself..and he's no longer just belonging to himself...
"we belong to each other!".....
we are as one now..
the one to share both our sadness and happiness....the one to heal the planted wound together...
and at the end of the road..we would look back with a big smile.....
coz there is nothing left to regret or miss...
we as one will still be together... "
one comment that i saw on other's blog, i felt it is nice and recorded it
and now it is time for me to take it out for my own life
i met u and falling in love with u
all of this story is a beautiful miracle that written by the holy God
when the happiness spread in my life, i realize that sadness will follow behind
no more to say, just make me deep into the happiness now
and let the following come by it's turn
love is not enough to express my felling towards u now
just wanna u be happy ,and together, we live our lives.
we belong together.and wish for forever
30 junio be about to set up...almost everything is on the right way now
get the offer ,and get the visa
the luggage is almost done, approximately 60 kilograms in total
coz a long time didn't talk in English, i feel a little bit wordless
i am waiting with a little excitement and nervous
i am also waiting the new suffering journey , and all of the challenges may happen to me
God bless!
No more , just do my best for preparing.
27 febrero excited and worriedtomorrow 1 pm.
the result will come out...
although i told everyone it's impossible for me to pass this time..
to be honest ,
may be i am the person that take on the big dream...
i donnot dare to check the result when everyone is checking in the resource room....
let me see my result when there is nobody...
is this the real time for me to pick up a little confidence now....
imagination,speculation ...don't make sense...
i just believe when i see the computer screen ....and the print words..
GOD BLESS ME !!!
04 noviembre at lastit seems that all in the end......
being alone myself, which seems isn't a bad thing
take my time, it's all has a gorgeus circle end,
as time goes on.....
at last....
i'm just one person all the time......
i have got used to that......
05 octubre just feeling......you are not handsome......
you are not the style i like......
you are , i don't know anything about you....
i just realize that the feeling i get from you .....
make me so comfortable....
let me feel so safe......
may be i still not forget the past....
the uncomplete past...
how to describe....it 's difficult in words...
may be i just want it to be circled.
may be that will be another non-result....
acturally i don't care....
i was disapponited times.....
12 septiembre that love let you knowyour beloved one will always love you...
for him...there is certainly no harms, but cares....
there is certainly no worries, but happiness...
how he has wished the wound have been planted in his heart rather than his dear ones....
he felt the oneness with you....he just realized the pain should indeed be shared between you and him rather than you alone....
simply because you are no longer just belonging to yourself..and he's no longer just belonging to himself...
"we belong to each other!".....
we are as one now..
the one to share both our sadness and happiness....the one to heal the planted wound together...
and at the end of the road..we would look back with a big smile.....
coz there is nothing left to regret or miss...
we as one will still be together...
16 agosto Final Justice ...So far ,not too long time till the result come out...... there are three directions in front of me...... these directions which can almost decide my last life..... and each of them could leads to an totally opposite colloge life..... i don't really realize the real and pritical way of each life in all.... and , last,at the time....and after... wait will be the only uesful thing..... and don't give up practise wait for the final justice ...... good luck for myself ! 19 julio is there a miracle exist....i recived a unbelievable letter yesterday.....
the school i applicant sent me a interview letter......asked me to take the interview......
i almost thought it is impossble to get into the school before......
the worse score i take one month ago made almost everything which i can get ,now,impossble......
and,i almost give up myself...to finish my college in the place where i have lived for near upon 20 years.....
then,
now,
a miracle has happen.....
though it just a beginning,and may be i will lost the chance at last .....
this is still an unbelievable turning for me.....for my whole family....
let me make it ok......
nomatter what will happen next......
this letter give my life a warm shine that i haven't feel for a long time....
is there a miracle exist......
may be yes,may be no,
but i get an encouragement from it ,that's true,that' enough.......
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